So you got a taste of your own medicine. I should be happy about this, right? Wrong. This means that you’re available. And you liked me once, so you can like me again. I no longer have anything stopping me now, there’s no other girl. The thing is, I can either hate you, or be friends with you and really like you. But I don’t want to like you, not at all. You’ve always treated me like shit and everyone can see it. You never chose me over anyone, I was always second best. The first girl, you couldn’t decide between me and her. Then when she fucked off it was me, but only because there wasn’t anyone else. Then a new girl came along and you forgot all about me. I was unimportant. You took her side over such a stupid thing without even asking me about it first.. when I thought we were at least friends.Then this week you were making more of an effort to try to talk to me, funny that. It’s only because she was ignoring you.

You know that you’re my weakness and you play with that. You know that I’m always going to be around, for some stupid reason that not even I am aware of. So now I don’t know what to do. You treat me like shit, you always pick faults in me and you make me feel like crap sometimes. But everytime I’m with you, you make me smile. I forget about everything else. I need someone better to come along, someone who will treat me amazingly and someone that will actually care about me. They’ll choose me because they like me and not just because I’m an option. 

Why does this always happen. Why.